Hmmm… suicide. Well I’ve seen it, heard it and I try to cope with it. I’m from the rez; it’s a common as gangs. Most of the suicides I see are because of love or rape. (In the death letters)
Just last month I went to two funerals, both of suicide, and both very young (16 and 20 years old). One was my cousin. The other was my best-friends ex-boyfriend. It’s always sad and hurtful even if you didn’t know them as well. But I never ask myself “why?” because it’s only in respect for the deceased to let it be and hurt inside.
I never knew my friend (at my cousin’s funeral) could cry so sadly. He has grown up a lot since then. My best friend was destroyed when she found out about her ex. I knew she burned inside, but she was strong and hid it inside. But I’ve seen losses and I’ve had a few, I’m proud of her strength.
There’s nothing on this reservation, nothing to live for. I think most young people are scared that they will fail in life, so they have the urge to take their life. That’s only my theory. I can’t speak for everyone here.
Me myself I wouldn’t try to commit (my life in general sucks but...) I can’t stand with even the thought of not existing. (0.0)It’s frightening to be thought of as nothing. Even not as human at the very least. And too many on the verge of suicide and are depending on me to help them walk it out.
As far as I can tell one death turns into another. Some people just can’t live without certain family members. I feel for those in hard times. I help, at times, with advice and comforting companionship. But you can’t talk everyone out of it.
“The old are getting older and watch the young men die.” Hollywood
I think I want to kill myself...:)
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